I’m so alone why won’t sanity come home

I’ve been waiting for you I don’t want too

I didn’t mean to but I had to

how I miss you so please tell me what to do

your fading away sanity please stay

the door too freedom is closed

I run but it stays by my side.

There are no bearable odds

there are no believable gods

there are no possible dreams

there is no silence only screams

there are no happy times

there are no simple signs

there are no reachable goals

there are no cleanable souls

there are no more fairy tales

there are no heaves bells.

upon this grave of the departed he was never closely guarded

for too long now i had unanswered cries

I’m falling away I’m so afraid

the love we had is crumbling

the time will come when I’ll die alone

but i cannot resist the fear

its the struggle that threatens me

will you stay or leave

how cruel live was to me

for my time here is limited

the joy i need restricted to despair

to place care in me was a waste of time

the emptiness reigns in my soul

encourage the madness welcome insanity

life constantly challenging me

all alone and afraid

the suffering begins when death ends

can no longer bare it you’ll be the one to send me to my grave

disgrace leads to denial no more smiles

faith leads me blind lies so hard to comprehend

my disturbed mind replays

laying low digging my hole

will i leave without any hope

what a man makes is therefor another’s greed

he’s a victim of this circumstance

these wounds won’t go away

there’s things inside me makes my screams and shouts

why has torment chosen me

beware for their are things that bite without a care

the agony never seeps

instead it bleeds me.

These tears that i shed from endearment of pain

from playing your game

open your eyes and realize that i hunger for your love

when i look into your eyes i had tears but i couldn’t cry

where we were we had wings but couldn’t fly

the only thing i got going for me

is the hope for tomorrow to be a better day

as for tonight another night without you

praying that this pain would go away

lost in darkness i stumble for the door

without you there i got nothing else to live for

your happiness is my pain

my suffering is your game

all i wish is to be in your cress

then i realize I’m only second best

no longer wanted darkness my only friend

to my emptiness to my looniness their is no end

all i want is for you to love me again

do you feel what i feel emotionally

do you love me at least give me a maybe.

So many tears i cried of loneliness

i feel so hollow inside like a carcass

darkness is haunting me driving me into insanity

my life now shattered from all the pain

Don’t know where I’m going

but it’s someplace new

to a paradise of suffering

even though i shed these tears it seems as though no one cares

i play the game that i just can’t win

every time i try I’m destined to loose again

beaten by all the battles that i fought over time

I’m lost into a paradise of suffering

Don’t know where I’m going but its someplace new

a place i know all too well

a paradise of suffering of inner hell

ripped open by torment of lust watching me bleed internally

slowly killed by the ones that i trust

dejected from grace sentenced to suffer from emptiness for eternity

forever cursed for my need to be loved

these tears that i shed from endearment of pain from playing your game

open your eyes and realize

that i hunger for your love

The suffering feeds on my innocence it makes me burn

they told me not to love you but I guess I’ll never learn

the first day I saw you it brought tears to my eyes.

I’m living in hell but i have no choice

but i know that somewhere someone hears my voice

i thought i knew it all, i thoughts i had it all but i feel it slipping away

how could it end this way

in this dream that’s haunting me my nightmare has become my reality

like an angel fallen through the skies

i know that somewhere someone sees my cries

where’s the helping hand is this my final stand

the hole in my heart cause the hole in my head

now they left me for dead

I’m down for the final count

how could you do this to me

put me through this agony

when i gave you my all

you just let me fall

and laughed at my cries

my heart now blackened its bleeding tears

can’t they see my suffering

or just can’t see it from this far

don’t have much to live for

everyone else seems to have more

I remember the day you said good-bye

i laid my head on my pillow and cried

left all alone again left in the dark

my only friend

its really something this love i have for you

its pure these feelings i have for you are true

i tried so hard to make you see

to show you how much you mean to me

how could you have done this to me

when i gave you my all

you ripped out my heart

and threw it away

this love i have for you is coming to its end

swallowed by the dark

its my only friend

each time you turned your back on me

my heart slowly died

remember the times you said you loved me

but i guess they were only lies

left all alone again

hiding in the shadows on a hollow man

i blame myself for not always being there for you

but now i can

a desperate man on the search

for the one he loves

forgotten man displaced by the world

looking for the maiden to put

his heart back into place

this love i have for you

it tears the sky

the cries it calls your name

when i lost you i had

no one but myself to blame

forgotten it appears

he slowly disappears

promised words we say

the feelings slept away

i thought you knew how much i loved you

the broken dream came true

tears of agony

heart in tormented pain

the day you left me

never again will i be the same

it hurts so much this love i have for you

if i could only touch you

it would be a dream come true

your my angel can’t you see

your my light you mean so much to me.

when the woman he loves appears

he hides behind his tears

when she passes on by she never notices the love he has for her

trusting what he thought was his best friend

best she left him for a better man

and just like before he’s all alone again

how many tears before she sees

is there no love for me

everything i try to do

isn’t good enough for the likes of you

hiding beyond the darkness

his shelter from the pain

sick and tired of being used as a

toy in their sick game

how many tears will have to flow

before you know this love

I have for you is true

is there no love for me

sentenced to live a life of loneliness for eternity

does this life have nothing more to give

without you no longer

do I wish to live

your virgin body so innocent and so pure.

I go through life feeling lost and lonely emptiness draining my soul

in my time of need i hunger for your love

i need you to hold me so tenderly

i bleed tears just to feel your touch all i want is you is that asking too much

you held me up when i was feeling down

this time we are playing for keeps

riding on the sea of passion

now in too deep a tragedy

when no one else would you were there to love me

we shared romantic love by candle light

our love is strongest when we hold each other tight.

Always feeling rejection for being a freak of creation

but for these tears i bleed will finally set me free

tormented in a life of sorrow

better off dead then live the pain of tomorrow

lost forever in a time of darkness for my life serves no purpose

this world is so unforgiving i lust to join the ones no longer living

for the peace would be so beautiful

finding comfort in shadows for my life is a black hole

in a world of so much violence i crave a paradise of silence

For my sin of temptation sentenced to timeless damnation

for there is no place where i belong

to be loved was my only desire for it I’m sent into hellfire to burn for eternity

in caged is my passion no chance to be free

as i burn in darkness it’s nothing new to me

another night of loneliness fills my heart with emptiness

suffering internally every time i try to love

For along time you wanted a better man

but up till know i been doing the best i can

i spend my days full of loneliness

i spend my years filled with emptiness

wasted love in a desperate carcass

its hopeless

i don’t even know why i even keep trying

everyday i think of you i keep crying

as i wait for the right person to come into my life

i count the tears that fall from my eyes

i wait in the rain, then i realize

the time i spent with you was only wasted years

the love i gave to you was only wasted tears

i don’t even know why i miss you

afraid to love again

The shadow of sorrow cast down on this lonely one

the cries of the broken seem to go on forever

in desperation the chance to love again lost forever

the smell of lust fills the sky

no one hears the echoes of drops from fallen

wasted tears.

I hunger to feel your touch

Tears i bleed hurt so much

i journey alone in a world of loneliness

no one to hold me

i feel so lonely

in my time of need

i crave you to hold me so tenderly

I journey this world lost and lonely

emptiness draining my life

drowning me in darkness

i feel your love so warm to the touch

i cradle your love

hunger for your touch

hopelessness draining my heart

getting worse through the years

loneliness hurting I bleed the tears

please rain love upon me.