Searching for what we were
never knowing what we had
there is always something coming
but is it good or bad
what will come to be
people are too stubborn to see
as it is now soon it will be
were setting it free
the lesson never learned
love should not be demanded but earned
something is coming it just takes time
but time we don’t have much of
mayhem and carnage we kill each other
no one left to recover
streets are now crypts
here comes apocalypse.
This was the road to my end
the time has come to pay the price
to speak your mind you wouldn’t think twice
then you used me in your sacrifice
the end has come so take your turn
the tears that you burn
reflect the essence in your fears
upon my pain in which you fee
in my brain you planted the sea
as the season past the torment grows
life has struck its final blow
i invested my love into for nothing could be sweeter
i said i need you does that make me wrong or am i a freak that just doesn’t belong
my heart was blackened its getting worse
is it me or just loves curse
trying to visualize the pleasures that lay ahead
deep own we know there is no their way when all is gone
are you my destiny or is it wasted love
no one loves this desperate carcass
tears float like silent whispers in the night
I’m a man who walks alone in the dark
seeking a promise that i was denied
now there’s nothing left to say
As time take’s its toll
faith makes blind
but i learn to live with it
let go of the pin in your mind
won’t you listen to what i have to say
they promise the world but eventually everything turns to dust
how i remember that very first day
when you slipped away
as i wait for love my heart slowly dies
at last i am at peace by self sacrifice
i pay the price in tears
every night i see only black
times i had good and bad
win or loose death is what i choose
I can’t seem to get away from fate
can i survive or is it already too late
love i seek and find in you
but you never cared nor did you knew
drowning in loneliness i suffocate
when you told me you were better off alone
i never knew that tears could sting
i can see you in my dreams
but our reach was just too far
i became old gray and beat
you turned my world into a dark lonely place
can’t you see the tears fall from my face
you must be my angel sent from grace
to take me to a better place
as my world closes in i only wish for you
can’t you understand me
the wind sings maiden bell songs
sounds of lust makes us anxious
your looks could kill your body my thrill
i wanted to hold you but i better not touch
how i love you just so much
in you web of deception I’m caught
i cry just too feel your touch
i want you to scream my name my pain your thrill
i wanted your love but it was just too much
will my heart ever shine it’s brightness that’s so true
never shined through what I’ve shown
when i look into your eyes i was quickly seduce
never will I be set free
this fight I cannot win
better places I been
never a care to die
UN regretfully to feel the peace inside of me
never to see what might of been.
There are 4 different “UNDERNEATH WICKED SKY” poems
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UNDERNEATH WICKED SKY 1
never a care for what they say
never a care for the games they play
the young man sits lonely at home
laying awake in the morning light
with no one to hold him tight
the heart grows old
all there is
time that is mine
life it seems to fade away
getting shorter everyday
lost the will to live
simply nothing more to give
getting lost within himself
nothing else matters no one else
didn’t know this pain could be so real
can’t stand this hell i feel
night taking dawn
i was me but now he’s gone
cannot live with this pain inside of me
don’t know what I’m supposed to fight for
but don’t want fight anymore
she loves me not but i love her still
break your heart she will
i love her still she loves me not
she left me lonely to rot
spend my days in looniness
spend my years with emptiness
this feeling comes from the heart
it tears my soul apart
what i thought is what i know
against the cold i stand alone
light doesn’t shine upon me
this is me soon to be you
look upon these tears
for pain is what they scream
no more crying no more cries
no more lying no more lies
when it comes to the time we will be partners in crime
now i’ll just say good bye.
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UNDERNEATH WICKED SKY 2
here we come to finish what needs to be done
the child watches his parents die under wicked sky
his parents are now dead
now who will put the child to bed
in the web of lies
the child begins to cry
he does not know what to fight for
he doesn’t want to go through this hell anymore
put into a little cell
put through a living hell
he thought he knew it all
he thought he had it all
don’t care for what they say
don’t care for their ways
they hate us for what we really are
i know there is a reason just can’t see it from this far
they take away my freedom of choice
but i know that somewhere someone hears my voice
what i felt, what i known
so sick and tired i stand alone
i lay awake in the morning light
with no one to hold
another sleepless night
you could make me laugh you could make me cry
but without you love maybe i should die
as people kill each other soon
there will me no love left to uncover
the dark of day the black of night
death is near it’s in sight
should I open the door for you
or are you unforgiving too
the lonely man was feeling down
until her love turned his heart around
life isn’t fair he said he loved her
but she doesn’t seem to care.
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UNDERNEATH WICKED SKY 3
everyday i learn something new
because i open my mind to a different view
now its here the light finally shines he thought the thoughts he had were only dreams
but everyday it happens
don’t believe everything is what it seems
the beginning of another world war
freedom is what their fighting for him it looks like the end
so let the pain begin
on his face is a tear
knowing he can’t stop the fear
love there is none for me there is no one
never opened myself this way
i never said this before it was too late
never a care for what they say
don’t care about anything anymore
underneath these wicked skies in the lonely night
never a care for their lies
now that its over tell me it will be all right
heart black as darkness
no one to love this desperate carcass
lonely guitar player down the hall
midnight blues shine through the walls
his luck was down he thought of leaving town
her called her on the phone
saying his lonely and all alone wanting her to come back home
he let the phone ring and ring
never knowing that tears could sting
he doesn’t laugh and he doesn’t cry
he doesn’t care if he lives or die he feel in love with a girl but never knew her name
he fell in love the first time but who can you blame
can’t you see you mean everything to me.
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UNDERNEATH WICKED SKY 4
no one hears his lonely heart cry
he cries when the girl he loves says her last good-bye’s
he lost his way in from the cold
thinking of what he will find
he will see the place very soon
he wished he knew how he loved her still
her love for him just never shined through
everyday mothers are crying
cause their babies keep dying
it cannot be its eating me
but now this feeling is true this love i have for you
but what can i say i felt this way each and every day
don’t laugh when a hearse goes by
or you may be the next to die
this song couldn’t be much more from the heart
these words i feel
it couldn’t be much more real
you never knew i felt thisway.
I was a man that hid from his tears
lost and forgotten for so many years
until i found myself
i look in the mirror and love turns into hate
whenever i saw your face
I hi in disgrace
until the light finally shined in.
when ever i see your frown
hurt would put me down
I’ve been through this before
so what’s it hurt with one more
I’ve come to let you know
that without you I’m not whole
i can’t help myself.
I’m so alone why won’t sanity come home
I’ve been waiting for you I don’t want too
I didn’t mean to but I had to
how I miss you so please tell me what to do
your fading away sanity please stay
the door too freedom is closed
I run but it stays by my side.
There are no bearable odds
there are no believable gods
there are no possible dreams
there is no silence only screams
there are no happy times
there are no simple signs
there are no reachable goals
there are no cleanable souls
there are no more fairy tales
there are no heaves bells.
upon this grave of the departed he was never closely guarded
for too long now i had unanswered cries
I’m falling away I’m so afraid
the love we had is crumbling
the time will come when I’ll die alone
but i cannot resist the fear
its the struggle that threatens me
will you stay or leave
how cruel live was to me
for my time here is limited
the joy i need restricted to despair
to place care in me was a waste of time
the emptiness reigns in my soul
encourage the madness welcome insanity
life constantly challenging me
all alone and afraid
the suffering begins when death ends
can no longer bare it you’ll be the one to send me to my grave
disgrace leads to denial no more smiles
faith leads me blind lies so hard to comprehend
my disturbed mind replays
laying low digging my hole
will i leave without any hope
what a man makes is therefor another’s greed
he’s a victim of this circumstance
these wounds won’t go away
there’s things inside me makes my screams and shouts
why has torment chosen me
beware for their are things that bite without a care
the agony never seeps
instead it bleeds me.
These tears that i shed from endearment of pain
from playing your game
open your eyes and realize that i hunger for your love
when i look into your eyes i had tears but i couldn’t cry
where we were we had wings but couldn’t fly
the only thing i got going for me
is the hope for tomorrow to be a better day
as for tonight another night without you
praying that this pain would go away
lost in darkness i stumble for the door
without you there i got nothing else to live for
your happiness is my pain
my suffering is your game
all i wish is to be in your cress
then i realize I’m only second best
no longer wanted darkness my only friend
to my emptiness to my looniness their is no end
all i want is for you to love me again
do you feel what i feel emotionally
do you love me at least give me a maybe.
So many tears i cried of loneliness
i feel so hollow inside like a carcass
darkness is haunting me driving me into insanity
my life now shattered from all the pain
Don’t know where I’m going
but it’s someplace new
to a paradise of suffering
even though i shed these tears it seems as though no one cares
i play the game that i just can’t win
every time i try I’m destined to loose again
beaten by all the battles that i fought over time
I’m lost into a paradise of suffering
Don’t know where I’m going but its someplace new
a place i know all too well
a paradise of suffering of inner hell
ripped open by torment of lust watching me bleed internally
slowly killed by the ones that i trust
dejected from grace sentenced to suffer from emptiness for eternity
forever cursed for my need to be loved
these tears that i shed from endearment of pain from playing your game
open your eyes and realize
that i hunger for your love
The suffering feeds on my innocence it makes me burn
they told me not to love you but I guess I’ll never learn
the first day I saw you it brought tears to my eyes.
I’m living in hell but i have no choice
but i know that somewhere someone hears my voice
i thought i knew it all, i thoughts i had it all but i feel it slipping away
how could it end this way
in this dream that’s haunting me my nightmare has become my reality
like an angel fallen through the skies
i know that somewhere someone sees my cries
where’s the helping hand is this my final stand
the hole in my heart cause the hole in my head
now they left me for dead
I’m down for the final count
how could you do this to me
put me through this agony
when i gave you my all
you just let me fall
and laughed at my cries
my heart now blackened its bleeding tears
can’t they see my suffering
or just can’t see it from this far
don’t have much to live for
everyone else seems to have more
I remember the day you said good-bye
i laid my head on my pillow and cried
left all alone again left in the dark
my only friend
its really something this love i have for you
its pure these feelings i have for you are true
i tried so hard to make you see
to show you how much you mean to me
how could you have done this to me
when i gave you my all
you ripped out my heart
and threw it away
this love i have for you is coming to its end
swallowed by the dark
its my only friend
each time you turned your back on me
my heart slowly died
remember the times you said you loved me
but i guess they were only lies
left all alone again
hiding in the shadows on a hollow man
i blame myself for not always being there for you
but now i can
a desperate man on the search
for the one he loves
forgotten man displaced by the world
looking for the maiden to put
his heart back into place
this love i have for you
it tears the sky
the cries it calls your name
when i lost you i had
no one but myself to blame
forgotten it appears
he slowly disappears
promised words we say
the feelings slept away
i thought you knew how much i loved you
the broken dream came true
tears of agony
heart in tormented pain
the day you left me
never again will i be the same
it hurts so much this love i have for you
if i could only touch you
it would be a dream come true
your my angel can’t you see
your my light you mean so much to me.
when the woman he loves appears
he hides behind his tears
when she passes on by she never notices the love he has for her
trusting what he thought was his best friend
best she left him for a better man
and just like before he’s all alone again
how many tears before she sees
is there no love for me
everything i try to do
isn’t good enough for the likes of you
hiding beyond the darkness
his shelter from the pain
sick and tired of being used as a
toy in their sick game
how many tears will have to flow
before you know this love
I have for you is true
is there no love for me
sentenced to live a life of loneliness for eternity
does this life have nothing more to give
without you no longer
do I wish to live
your virgin body so innocent and so pure.
I go through life feeling lost and lonely emptiness draining my soul
in my time of need i hunger for your love
i need you to hold me so tenderly
i bleed tears just to feel your touch all i want is you is that asking too much
you held me up when i was feeling down
this time we are playing for keeps
riding on the sea of passion
now in too deep a tragedy
when no one else would you were there to love me
we shared romantic love by candle light
our love is strongest when we hold each other tight.
Always feeling rejection for being a freak of creation
but for these tears i bleed will finally set me free
tormented in a life of sorrow
better off dead then live the pain of tomorrow
lost forever in a time of darkness for my life serves no purpose
this world is so unforgiving i lust to join the ones no longer living
for the peace would be so beautiful
finding comfort in shadows for my life is a black hole
in a world of so much violence i crave a paradise of silence
For my sin of temptation sentenced to timeless damnation
for there is no place where i belong
to be loved was my only desire for it I’m sent into hellfire to burn for eternity
in caged is my passion no chance to be free
as i burn in darkness it’s nothing new to me
another night of loneliness fills my heart with emptiness
suffering internally every time i try to love