Living a tale of agony

i feel the voices laughing at me

don’t want to live

can’t even think of a reason why

don’t even know why i ever existed

i only find peace at mind

when i know I’m destined to die

feeling its warmth death greets me with open arms

i feel life slipping away as the days go by

having to swallow the sorrow

life it seems is fading away getting darker everyday

the pain has become all to real

can’t stand this hell I feel

emptiness is filling me driving me into insanity

the end is taking dawn

I was here but now I’m gone.

Searching for what we were

never knowing what we had

there is always something coming

but is it good or bad

what will come to be

people are too stubborn to see

as it is now soon it will be

were setting it free

the lesson never learned

love should not be demanded but earned

something is coming it just takes time

but time we don’t have much of

mayhem and carnage we kill each other

no one left to recover

streets are now crypts

here comes apocalypse.

This was the road to my end

the time has come to pay the price

to speak your mind you wouldn’t think twice

then you used me in your sacrifice

the end has come so take your turn

the tears that you burn

reflect the essence in your fears

upon my pain in which you fee

in my brain you planted the sea

as the season past the torment grows

life has struck its final blow

i invested my love into for nothing could be sweeter

i said i need you does that make me wrong or am i a freak that just doesn’t belong

my heart was blackened its getting worse

is it me or just loves curse

trying to visualize the pleasures that lay ahead

deep own we know there is no their way when all is gone

are you my destiny or is it wasted love

no one loves this desperate carcass

tears float like silent whispers in the night

I’m a man who walks alone in the dark

seeking a promise that i was denied

now there’s nothing left to say

As time take’s its toll

faith makes blind

but i learn to live with it

let go of the pin in your mind

won’t you listen to what i have to say

they promise the world but eventually everything turns to dust

how i remember that very first day

when you slipped away

as i wait for love my heart slowly dies

at last i am at peace by self sacrifice

i pay the price in tears

every night i see only black

times i had good and bad

win or loose death is what i choose

I can’t seem to get away from fate

can i survive or is it already too late

love i seek and find in you

but you never cared nor did you knew

drowning in loneliness i suffocate

when you told me you were better off alone

i never knew that tears could sting

i can see you in my dreams

but our reach was just too far

i became old gray and beat

you turned my world into a dark lonely place

can’t you see the tears fall from my face

you must be my angel sent from grace

to take me to a better place

as my world closes in i only wish for you

can’t you understand me

the wind sings maiden bell songs

sounds of lust makes us anxious

your looks could kill your body my thrill

i wanted to hold you but i better not touch

how i love you just so much

in you web of deception I’m caught

i cry just too feel your touch

i want you to scream my name my pain your thrill

i wanted your love but it was just too much

will my heart ever shine it’s brightness that’s so true

never shined through what I’ve shown

when i look into your eyes i was quickly seduce

never will I be set free

this fight I cannot win

better places I been

never a care to die

UN regretfully to feel the peace inside of me

never to see what might of been.

There are 4 different “UNDERNEATH WICKED SKY” poems

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UNDERNEATH WICKED SKY 1

 

never a care for what they say

never a care for the games they play

the young man sits lonely at home

laying awake in the morning light

with no one to hold him tight

the heart grows old

all there is

time that is mine

life it seems to fade away

getting shorter everyday

lost the will to live

simply nothing more to give

getting lost within himself

nothing else matters no one else

didn’t know this pain could be so real

can’t stand this hell i feel

night taking dawn

i was me but now he’s gone

cannot live with this pain inside of me

don’t know what I’m supposed to fight for

but don’t want fight anymore

she loves me not but i love her still

break your heart she will

i love her still she loves me not

she left me lonely to rot

spend my days in looniness

spend my years with emptiness

this feeling comes from the heart

it tears my soul apart

what i thought is what i know

against the cold i stand alone

light doesn’t shine upon me

this is me soon to be you

look upon these tears

for pain is what they scream

no more crying no more cries

no more lying no more lies

when it comes to the time we will be partners in crime

now i’ll just say good bye.

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UNDERNEATH WICKED SKY 2

 

here we come to finish what needs to be done

the child watches his parents die under wicked sky

his parents are now dead

now who will put the child to bed

in the web of lies

the child begins to cry

he does not know what to fight for

he doesn’t want to go through this hell anymore

put into a little cell

put through a living hell

he thought he knew it all

he thought he had it all

don’t care for what they say

don’t care for their ways

they hate us for what we really are

i know there is a reason just can’t see it from this far

they take away my freedom of choice

but i know that somewhere someone hears my voice

what i felt, what i known

so sick and tired i stand alone

i lay awake in the morning light

with no one to hold

another sleepless night

you could make me laugh you could make me cry

but without you love maybe i should die

as people kill each other soon

there will me no love left to uncover

the dark of day the black of night

death is near it’s in sight

should I open the door for you

or are you unforgiving too

the lonely man was feeling down

until her love turned his heart around

life isn’t fair he said he loved her

but she doesn’t seem to care.

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UNDERNEATH WICKED SKY 3

 

everyday i learn something new

because i open my mind to a different view

now its here the light finally shines he thought the thoughts he had were only dreams

but everyday it happens

don’t believe everything is what it seems

the beginning of another world war

freedom is what their fighting for him it looks like the end

so let the pain begin

on his face is a tear

knowing he can’t stop the fear

love there is none for me there is no one

never opened myself this way

i never said this before it was too late

never a care for what they say

don’t care about anything anymore

underneath these wicked skies in the lonely night

never a care for their lies

now that its over tell me it will be all right

heart black as darkness

no one to love this desperate carcass

lonely guitar player down the hall

midnight blues shine through the walls

his luck was down he thought of leaving town

her called her on the phone

saying his lonely and all alone wanting her to come back home

he let the phone ring and ring

never knowing that tears could sting

he doesn’t laugh and he doesn’t cry

he doesn’t care if he lives or die he feel in love with a girl but never knew her name

he fell in love the first time but who can you blame

can’t you see you mean everything to me.

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UNDERNEATH WICKED SKY 4

 

no one hears his lonely heart cry

he cries when the girl he loves says her last good-bye’s

he lost his way in from the cold

thinking of what he will find

he will see the place very soon

he wished he knew how he loved her still

her love for him just never shined through

everyday mothers are crying

cause their babies keep dying

it cannot be its eating me

but now this feeling is true this love i have for you

but what can i say i felt this way each and every day

don’t laugh when a hearse goes by

or you may be the next to die

this song couldn’t be much more from the heart

these words i feel

it couldn’t be much more real

you never knew i felt thisway.

I was a man that hid from his tears

lost and forgotten for so many years

until i found myself

i look in the mirror and love turns into hate

whenever i saw your face

I hi in disgrace

until the light finally shined in.

when ever i see your frown

hurt would put me down

I’ve been through this before

so what’s it hurt with one more

I’ve come to let you know

that without you I’m not whole

i can’t help myself.

I’m so alone why won’t sanity come home

I’ve been waiting for you I don’t want too

I didn’t mean to but I had to

how I miss you so please tell me what to do

your fading away sanity please stay

the door too freedom is closed

I run but it stays by my side.

There are no bearable odds

there are no believable gods

there are no possible dreams

there is no silence only screams

there are no happy times

there are no simple signs

there are no reachable goals

there are no cleanable souls

there are no more fairy tales

there are no heaves bells.

upon this grave of the departed he was never closely guarded

for too long now i had unanswered cries

I’m falling away I’m so afraid

the love we had is crumbling

the time will come when I’ll die alone

but i cannot resist the fear

its the struggle that threatens me

will you stay or leave

how cruel live was to me

for my time here is limited

the joy i need restricted to despair

to place care in me was a waste of time

the emptiness reigns in my soul

encourage the madness welcome insanity

life constantly challenging me

all alone and afraid

the suffering begins when death ends

can no longer bare it you’ll be the one to send me to my grave

disgrace leads to denial no more smiles

faith leads me blind lies so hard to comprehend

my disturbed mind replays

laying low digging my hole

will i leave without any hope

what a man makes is therefor another’s greed

he’s a victim of this circumstance

these wounds won’t go away

there’s things inside me makes my screams and shouts

why has torment chosen me

beware for their are things that bite without a care

the agony never seeps

instead it bleeds me.

These tears that i shed from endearment of pain

from playing your game

open your eyes and realize that i hunger for your love

when i look into your eyes i had tears but i couldn’t cry

where we were we had wings but couldn’t fly

the only thing i got going for me

is the hope for tomorrow to be a better day

as for tonight another night without you

praying that this pain would go away

lost in darkness i stumble for the door

without you there i got nothing else to live for

your happiness is my pain

my suffering is your game

all i wish is to be in your cress

then i realize I’m only second best

no longer wanted darkness my only friend

to my emptiness to my looniness their is no end

all i want is for you to love me again

do you feel what i feel emotionally

do you love me at least give me a maybe.

So many tears i cried of loneliness

i feel so hollow inside like a carcass

darkness is haunting me driving me into insanity

my life now shattered from all the pain

Don’t know where I’m going

but it’s someplace new

to a paradise of suffering

even though i shed these tears it seems as though no one cares

i play the game that i just can’t win

every time i try I’m destined to loose again

beaten by all the battles that i fought over time

I’m lost into a paradise of suffering

Don’t know where I’m going but its someplace new

a place i know all too well

a paradise of suffering of inner hell

ripped open by torment of lust watching me bleed internally

slowly killed by the ones that i trust

dejected from grace sentenced to suffer from emptiness for eternity

forever cursed for my need to be loved

these tears that i shed from endearment of pain from playing your game

open your eyes and realize

that i hunger for your love

The suffering feeds on my innocence it makes me burn

they told me not to love you but I guess I’ll never learn

the first day I saw you it brought tears to my eyes.

I’m living in hell but i have no choice

but i know that somewhere someone hears my voice

i thought i knew it all, i thoughts i had it all but i feel it slipping away

how could it end this way

in this dream that’s haunting me my nightmare has become my reality

like an angel fallen through the skies

i know that somewhere someone sees my cries

where’s the helping hand is this my final stand

the hole in my heart cause the hole in my head

now they left me for dead

I’m down for the final count

how could you do this to me

put me through this agony

when i gave you my all

you just let me fall

and laughed at my cries

my heart now blackened its bleeding tears

can’t they see my suffering

or just can’t see it from this far

don’t have much to live for

everyone else seems to have more

I remember the day you said good-bye

i laid my head on my pillow and cried

left all alone again left in the dark

my only friend

its really something this love i have for you

its pure these feelings i have for you are true

i tried so hard to make you see

to show you how much you mean to me

how could you have done this to me

when i gave you my all

you ripped out my heart

and threw it away

this love i have for you is coming to its end

swallowed by the dark

its my only friend

each time you turned your back on me

my heart slowly died

remember the times you said you loved me

but i guess they were only lies

left all alone again

hiding in the shadows on a hollow man

i blame myself for not always being there for you

but now i can

a desperate man on the search

for the one he loves

forgotten man displaced by the world

looking for the maiden to put

his heart back into place

this love i have for you

it tears the sky

the cries it calls your name

when i lost you i had

no one but myself to blame

forgotten it appears

he slowly disappears

promised words we say

the feelings slept away

i thought you knew how much i loved you

the broken dream came true

tears of agony

heart in tormented pain

the day you left me

never again will i be the same

it hurts so much this love i have for you

if i could only touch you

it would be a dream come true

your my angel can’t you see

your my light you mean so much to me.

when the woman he loves appears

he hides behind his tears

when she passes on by she never notices the love he has for her

trusting what he thought was his best friend

best she left him for a better man

and just like before he’s all alone again

how many tears before she sees

is there no love for me

everything i try to do

isn’t good enough for the likes of you

hiding beyond the darkness

his shelter from the pain

sick and tired of being used as a

toy in their sick game

how many tears will have to flow

before you know this love

I have for you is true

is there no love for me

sentenced to live a life of loneliness for eternity

does this life have nothing more to give

without you no longer

do I wish to live

your virgin body so innocent and so pure.

I go through life feeling lost and lonely emptiness draining my soul

in my time of need i hunger for your love

i need you to hold me so tenderly

i bleed tears just to feel your touch all i want is you is that asking too much

you held me up when i was feeling down

this time we are playing for keeps

riding on the sea of passion

now in too deep a tragedy

when no one else would you were there to love me

we shared romantic love by candle light

our love is strongest when we hold each other tight.